don’t take yourself so seriously. close your eyes right now and consciously think about relaxing. think about a little fear that consumes you. don’t try to tackle the big ones at first… just a little one. do one thing you are afraid of every day.
life is like a roller coaster. you can spend it clinging to the bar in fear with white knuckles screaming… or you can relax and feel the exhilaration and freedom of an amazing ride.
the difference? (cuz I’ve been both places)
easy to say, hard to do, i know. it’s your choice… but not all your choice. you can choose to ask Someone for help that comes from outside of you. that Someone is Jesus Christ.
reach out to Him. even if it’s a little short scared prayer. God, help me. God, i’m afraid. Jesus, i don’t know what’s real any more. Help me.
and that’s not just something that is “true for me” or something that “works for me” and not for everyone else. it is an absolute truth that transcends all time, every culture. how do i know that? how could christians be pompous enough to claim a corner on truth?
well, we’re not. God is.
Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” (John 14:6) there is no other way, no other truth, no other life.
and you know what?
try it. see if these things are true. if you think i’m wrong… seriously and genuinely give God your heart, your fears, your derealization, whatever you are going through. pray, Christ, i’m impefect. i have sinned. i need You. forgive me. break these chains. set me free.
free. free to enjoy the wild exhilarating roller coaster of life. free from all the things that are holding you back from joy. rest. peace.
will God completely fix your derealization or depersonalization? maybe yes. maybe no. God is not a band-aid. I follow and love Him, and I still make mistakes. I still battle with fear and derealization from time to time, even though I am slowly winning that battle.
but without Christ you are fighting this battle alone.
even if you have people around you loving you (and you do. no matter what tough thing you are going through, even though i don’t know you or your situation, i’m praying for the person who needs to hear these words right now. I love you. But more importantly, God loves you.), no one but you knows what is going on in your heart, behind your eyes. Christ knows. Christ sees. He alone can comfort. He alone can speak to you in the darkness of your despair. He alone already knows the depths of your heart.
you don’t have to be alone in there.
He is just waiting for you to let Him in.